Monday, November 12, 2012

Anxiety

Pre-Kyra, I routinely worked a few hours during the weekends. But now that she is around, I try to play with her all weekend long. The issue is that I am not able to complete all of my work projects during normal working hours and/or over the weekends anymore. I try to leave by 5pm or 6pm everyday, so that I can hang out with her and play and read books before her bedtime. This new routine led me to get up at freaking 1am this morning and get to work. I had planned on getting up at 4am and heading into work a little earlier than usual, but all I could think about all night long was my project that was due this morning. The more I thought about it, the more anxious I got. So, I got up uber early and cranked it out. Thank God I got in here when I did, because there is no way I would have met my deadline if I had come in later like I had planned on doing. I like what I do, but cannot believe how many hours I have put in over the past year.

Which leads me to my little sister. She is contemplating becoming a lawyer. I do not want to dash her hopes or dreams, so I told her to make sure she goes somewhere freaking cheap/affordable, so she does not feel like she needs to work 12-15 hours a day minimum to pay back her student loans fast ha-ha. Nice advice eh? However, I am pretty sure I would have worked this much even if I didn't have crazy student loan balances. Its just my personality type. That being said, I cannot help but wonder if my health issues this year are the result of all of the freaking hours I have put in..